Information Technology: Setting the Trend of Globalization through Quality Education
(by:Meljer M. Lozano.....this is the piece which take gold medal during the SJIT foundation day)


Many years had pass.

It was just seems yesterday that I was just in grade school when I never had seen this gadgets all over me.

I still can remember that when my teacher had to use pads of Manila paper and boxes of chalks just to give the appropriate discussion of the day, I still can remember asking my mom to write my entire school project for it really stressed out my hands, I still can remember that I need have to scan all the possible books in the library for my research assignment, all of those exhausting works are the life of the people when this gadget never just visible as today.

What’s with today? Who make the difference between before and today? Who put the gap between before and today? The answer to these questions is just one word, it is the “Computers “. Computers have travel to much to civilize the uncivilized, to educate the ignorant, to develop the undeveloped, and to lighten the dark. In this case, Information Technology Education begins to rise.

These terrific gadgets have entered the portal of all aspect of life: Business, Economics, Industrials, Governments and especially Education. Education consider as one of the most important asset of every citizen in this world, that is why computer become so concern to help these educators and student to do there work as fast as the light could be. From the process of enrolment, computer is so much in need, rush and difficulty is being avoided for there were these cool gadgets that handles million of records and files which give students a very comfortable and convenient enrollment system. After the enrolment, discussion and reports is in the ambiance of the school. But never be worry of these responsibilities for computers are there waiting for someone to open the PowerPoint for the slide reports and the Microsoft Word is there waiting for you to copy and paste your report and there you have it ready for the hardcopy submission. See, student life had been so easy. After then, assignments, projects, take home exams and research papers is never been a headache of the student. For the big coverage of internet is very wide for you to occupy and there where you can have your research of all of those school requirements without a fuss, worry and late remarks for in a minute you can have all what you want.

Through these teamwork and camaraderie being shared by computers and human, education is highly recognize throughout the globe. By means of these adequate technological learning facilities students like us will definitely become strong candidate of employment and other extraordinary carries of life. We students with full knowledge being spooned in by our teachers with lend a hand by computer become more competitive throughout local and national and even the awesome international. We were ready to face the opportunity and fight our rivals with full geared of knowledge and skills.

Before had been so far from today! I just imagined how life have running so fast toward dynamic computer age, the information generation and the digital revolution, it is here and it is here to stay. Stay longer and prolonged the luxury of human life that computer had offer. We technologically literate and educated human are ready to face and encounter many problem and chaos may arise in the journey of our lives. Many basics and manually working job are being taken over by the mighty of computer. But we were here to protect and preserved the life of human from annihilation, if computer itself ready to take over the human race. Indeed human intelligence has the greater power against artificial intelligence.
We will never be defeated for we compete with experienced and craving to set the trends of globalization through quality education by means of this legendary, historic Information Technology.

MY CRUSH

MY CRUSH
(by: Meljer M. Lozano)

I am shy from the day I saw you.
I can’t find the reason but I know it’s about you.
You walk in the hallway then I knees starts to shiver
There is an earthquake inside my body that trigger

I just can’t find the chance to set with you closer
Or even talk to you so much better
For shamed is not yet getting over
Until dreaming that you are mine forever

Your smile where so sweet like angel
Can’t stop my eyes to close and feel I kiss you
But I open it up there was not you
But hope will vanish my burden through

In the crowd it was only you I saw
As if spotlighted in the full show
For you is my ever pretty partner
In the show of my own life that may stay forever

I can hug you only in my mind
I can kiss you only in my mind
I can talk to you, say I love you
Or even walk with you but only in my mind.

I set my book aside to think of you
And draw your eyes just like morning dew
Then kiss the sketch as if it was you
For I know that time I am close to you

You are Venus in the eye of Zeus
But in me your beauty is beyond Venus could be
For you are mine and I am truly yours
(Laugh) as if it was really true

But I saw you with other guy
Can’t fight the pain and agony inside
I have no right to confront you
For you didn’t even know me too

I heard from girls’ gossip over the air
That you are already with some other
Losing hope is what I fell right now
For I have no chance to make a vow

I just do not know why I am acting this way
I even become irritated over the day
But all I know this is all because of you
I wish that the pain is only in my mind too

TIME BRING ME BACK

TIME BRING ME BACK
By: Meljer M. Lozano

She was new for me, for it was my first time
I have then never talk for a very long time
Maybe I’m shy? But I know I’m shameless
Because I’m observing them motionless

For some of them have known ever since
I was quite taking a smile to feel my sense
But invisible blocks keep me as mute
Silence with me, feel like a tune of a flute

Sun have rested and then shined out
Trying to prepare myself as ready as scout
Eager to utter a word to join the talk
Until I adopt them and go for a walk

We share and we have get close
But one of them one shines the most
She was pretty but the secret was hidden
This is obvious in its action and words of burden

We became closer until I know her more
And disclose of it’s everything like open door
Free to all who to listen
But be careful if you don’t want to be beaten

Best of friends as she consider
Only her who can always remember
Trying to feel the feelings she feels
Asking my self why can’t feel the same

Am I too self-centered? Or weird?
Can’t even appreciate the things she did
Still in her everything is okay
In me every time we meet is boredom day

Little by little I know the secret inside
In the past she lay in bed of thorns beside
That is why playing the agony in heart
And changing into smile of art





The crowd can’t stop mocking
As if they were playing a puppet for a king
Still she’s a person of sensitivity
For her friend and me feel pity

We were trying to comfort our friend
Not to listen and in here no need to defend
For nothing to be scared of
Cause everything is true and nothing more

I was once playing in here with a prank
In here fell ashamed and feel the crank
For me nothing is wrong of my deeds
But can’t deny, I hurt her

Changes start and laughter is not on the air
It’s like we really don’t even care
Pride in me have started and risen up
I don’t feel for I think I’m giving up

Thirty days I have count we don’t ever talk
It seems time have brought me back
Like no one can talk to me but books
But my cheery smile is in lock

I have realized pride can’t do anything but madness
In me I always feel the deep sadness
Eager to solve quickly the existing problem
But my heart and my feet are lame

Still we are with the same set of friends
Talking to another as it she’s not there
Insanity have slowly can’t find the end
Trying to handle the problem with her

Humanity of her personality is overflowing
She approach me without knowing
Hug me tight and saying, she misses me
Still in me can’t find the messy miss me






But deep inside I feel something strange
Some kind of a puzzle that is complete
Shame in me covers a very wide range
Saying I’m not worthy for your love



But she don’t care for I am her friend
But in me I doubt if it is still the best of friends
For now I am happy were back together
Spending happy time with each other

I am afraid that it would happen again
Till the time would let it heal and begin
Many days we have so much wasted
And hoping that these days will be lasted

In my mind fear cover it all over
Thinking that time would bring me over
To the time and place that she never talk to me
As it I’m living that she can’t see me

How everyone is happy and gay
Gladness spread everywhere, and hey!
Look I can appreciate how I value her
That even a million of wealth can’t replace

Thank you God for you have guided me
In all cause and all things would it be
I’ll be trying with God as free as an egret
Asking not to bring me back to time, which I regret

M E M O I R S I N S I M O N (by: Meljer M. Lozano)

The people in town consider my Family as one of the most influential people in the whole wide town governs by my daddy. People do feel intimidated, and fear grows in them if they have the chance to meet my dad. I can consider my self as a girl with everything. I can do what I want; I can buy what I want. And it is not hard for me to get what my mouth speaks. But it doesn’t make me happy. I can feel the emptiness inside. All of these material things never take an effort to make my heart smile as wide as I want. I want to experience a simple living.
Mom died since I was seven years old, only I can remember her tender hand that smoothly touches my face whenever I go to bed. “Mom I miss you a lot” I utter. As mom is still on earth I can always hear her and daddy arguing lot of things but, still mom stay calm and let dad shout aloud. Dad and mom really do have a little bit of similarities and a lot of emotional indifference. Mom is genuine, dad is harsh; mom is understanding while dad seems cant get my point.
Everything in me is planned by my dad. And the worst thing is even my heart it is still his will to be obeyed. I have been sacrificing all my life in this chamber of imprisonment for a very long year. I want to feel the outside living and search for my lost spirit.
At the night of my debut I have something in my mind that I would like to do. I want to escape and fled away from dad. Everything was planned by me and my best friend Sheldon. We were like a twin that’s why we planed to switch on the person. We planned to wear a mask so that no one can doubt and speculate. At that very moment when Sheldon is trying go downs stairs I am secretly fled away from home. I take a ride with no idea where to go. “Yes…yes…yes I finally made it! And oh God please take good care of my friend” I whisper. The bus I’m riding is still in the city that time; fear is in me thinking that what if they can find me. Because I know that dad is having a lot of goons outside. At that moment I can hear police wanging there alarm and an ambulance beside the bus which is someone is inside. I know that maybe they are now searching in me. Finally the bus makes it to the far way home, far from the city, from far dad. I feel exhausted that make me sleep.
“Hey miss wake up! You haven’t pay your fair yet”…”Am sorry sir here it is, by the way what place is these?” I ask. “This is the very last place the bus could reach; we are in the remote area of Simon. The place was very new for me it is as if I am in the place of new people. I take a walk a little bit for me to take adjustment of the area. I am searching for a place where I could take my lunch and search some little inn. I can’t find any restaurant but I found a cute food store. I take the order for about five people for I was not able to take my dinner until breakfast. It seems that no one can identify who I am for I can feel my liberty and freewomen here. These would be a very big adjustment to me. I am ready to face everything for I am willing to change and search my life. I remember to make a call for my friend Sheldon ask for what happen after I left the mansion…tut-tut “What? I can find signal in my phone it would to hard to contact Sheldon in this case.”…” I think I have to search for a perfect place for call…hmmm I think I found the right one….perfect! I can call Sheldon right now.”…”Hello?” I asked “Oh God thank your safe where are you? How can I find you? Who are your companions right now?” Sheldon’s asked worriedly, and I answer “Hey girl it’s okay, don’t you worry I’m in a safe place and I can handle my self, how about you are you okay?” I asked…”Yes I was able to escape that time then, but I am still afraid that your dad can find me and bang… you know what’s next” she explained “Okay, just drop the phone and I will call you later before anyone can hear us”.
I take some stroll all over the town searching for a new home. Then I am in the peak of the hill when I decided to take some rest and watch the sky over with birds and the cows and goats and everything is in my dreams as I feel asleep in my dreams I was running over the mountains and barefooted and little by little I can feel water drops in my head and in my whole body…”What? It’s raining, Oh God I have to search for a shade” I exclaimed when I woke up soaking wet in the rain, as I am running I accidentally hit a men as he also go running over a there house as we bangs out each other we fall in to the mud and hurriedly trying to stand and fetch everything…”My deepest sorry miss, I am so sorry I was not able to notice you for I am in a hurry” the cute man explained, I can see a bottle of medicine in his hand and some small tablets then I said “Oh that’s okay, I am sorry too, I was not able to watch my step for it was too dark” then he offer me something “Let us go over here, this our house, it seems that you just new here, I never see a girl dressed like you before here in our place.” We enter a small house with a lamp on the table and sick women on a small bed beside the dining table. “Who is she?” I asked then he glanced at me with his bright cute eyes and said “She is my mother, it is been a year since she suffer from illness”…”Oh I am sorry again for that.” He was so busy arranging things and he hand me dress and told me to change my clothes, I notice that he and only her sick mother is at home that time. I can see him from afar, his a little bit handsome and tall and I can see his responsible then he said “Are you done miss, you can use my room and sorry for I can’t give you a comfortable bed” his offer. Then I can feel the hardness of the bed but I don’t have any complain for I know that this is my own choice. I spend the whole night over the house of a stranger and me stranger on to them.
I woke up for about ten because I thought it still dawn for the ambiance was so different in the city. “You can eat your breakfast if you want, but if you want to take your lunch you can for it was about ten” he offered but I am so shy that time I ratter not too choose whether of the two but I feel so hungry and can’t go over the day without my eat. After I eat I can see him busy working with some of the household chores. He axes woods, Fitch water and fills the empty container in the comfort room, as he is so busy I ask him some of a typical question, “hey thank you, by the way what is your name?”…”Peter” he said…”Peter Pan? Oh just kidding, so by the way I’m Sophia, you can call me Sophie if you want”… He doesn’t have reaction but instead he just ignores me and continues in his chores, I don’t stop talking until I have to catch up here attention. Then he said to me “Am, Sophie I have to go to the farm to feed the cows if you want to go with me you can but do not wear those high heels it doesn’t fit the place okay. I just wonder why I really have strange feeling with this guy even if we’ve never been for about 24 hours.
At that very moment I just spend my time in the farm and feel the cold air that whispers through my ears and touches my skin. The whole time I am with the cows and other tamed animals that peter have feed. As I sat down in the grassy soil I can see how wide the farm with a very green field. At that time I have remember my old childhood friend that I left as I visit grandma in our town, I just can’t remember the place but I have just in my mind is all the memories that I have with my new founded friend. Telling the truth he was my first love for I had never feel the same way as I feel before. We shared lot of laughter and feeling that make me a better person. I just can remember that he gave me a wooden carved figure of a country boy then I gave him the bottle necklace, whew… how much I miss here, somehow we could have the chance to meet again. Then someone tap my shoulder… “Hey there Sophie lets go, we have to catch up until twelve mom is waiting there for me”…”Oh yes…yes…” Then we go over hills to hills and pass river and lake. We reach the house exactly eleven and I help him prepare the table and we share the food. Then his mother talked for the very first time…”Hey young lady, even if I don’t have any chance to know you much better but it feels very good inside of me, if you don’t have home to stay, you can make our home your home too” … the old lady humbly make the offer then I said “oh how sweet, thank you so mach, actually I’m from the city I have my vacation here and a country study, we were be living here until we can survive the conflict that may arise here and can handle it by our own selves” my strategic alibis “oh good you have chosen the right place, peter will take good care of you as she take good care of me too”. While his mother Lonny saying the words I notice peter moving his shoulder to his mom’s shoulder as if he want it to stop telling those things. Then suddenly our eyes meets in the center and I can see his very masculine face and humble smiles, oh God he so handsome I was shaking my body of excitement and she said “Oh what happen is there something wrong?”…”No…no actually the wind is so tight and cold I cant stop to shiver.” But I make alibi again but it was just here face that make me so cold and shiver. I am just ignoring this feeling I have inside of me. It would seem that I am going after him and expecting that there would be a spark of romance in between us. But I stay calm and act the way how girls have to pretend that they were not affected by charming guys.
It was Sunday in town. I dressed up as my usual outfit, I wear skinny jeans and wedged shoes with my preggy effect pink dotted blouse matching with Gucci snake skin bag. I know that I am comfortable with this outfit but that time everyone is staring at me and that make me uncomfortable. Then peter whisper me something “Just ignore them, they were just stunned by your wardrobe, but your so sexy and feminine ha?”…that was the first appreciation I have receive from peter and it wind up my uncomfortability. We have spent the whole Sunday at home which he teaches me how to make basket out of abaca leaves. Peter really have the gift of hand, he turn this pieces into art materials. Then I start the conversation “Excuse me peter can I asked you something?”…”Yes what it is?”…”Am, peter have you been engage to a relationship? Like having girlfriends or something” my question make peter stop a little bit and answer the hot question of mine. “Seriously, I have no girlfriend ever since, I was afraid that I would feel something inside and come the time that she would just leave me in despair, I have been waiting for the time that the feeling inside would burns up again, and …” he explained in a low voice then I snag “ and what? Continue I’m listening.”…”No, you have so curios about it ha, well my past just freaky time of my life, I have been so serious about her, I even do the thing I have never been done before just to make her happy, we share lot of laughers and unforgettable moment, but what have she done”…I was shocked on peter’s reaction, he cried out loud and I can feel his agony inside “but what have she done? She left me alone crying without saying goodbye. I promise my self not to see here again” peter cried out loud and I sympathized in his feelings. Now I know why he was so silent and feels like he have no plan for his future but to stay here in his country. Then I was listening again as he make some words “But I have to move on and life must have to go on, you know Sophie even if I have these tragic inside still I can’t help my self but to look at you and wishing that……” I was speechless for I have in my mind of what he have to say next. Then he never have the chance to finish the words and run over into the hill with his eyes fall of tears then left me alone. I have a very strange feeling that time. I just can’t understand the feeling that pushes me to doubt and don’t have any idea what to do if I have to run after him or just stay in foot or wait until he decided to came back. I can’t still stop thinking that he has some feelings in me. If he does the words and action, no second thought I will accept him as my new inspiration. I just can’t explain why I have this very urge, it seems that there is something that connect me into his life. It seems that I have been part of his life and part of his past. “Am I in love with him?” my freaky question to my self that only me who can answer. Because all I know is that whenever he is near to me I feel so different and I can’t stop my self to watch his face and day dreaming that he kisses me, “Hey Sophia stop dreaming, peter wont like you for you are a city girl, and peter like the way how country girls act. Well, I guess if I have to act one of them, for that peter would surely appreciate it and love me the way I want it to”…”Yes I think I’m in love with him.”…I just can’t wait that peter would feel the same way too, and do some step on the courting…oh God I have been so hilarious this days…heheheheheh but that was true.”
Many days have then passed. I can feel the freedom in here, peter and the place had thought me so much about life. At that night I want to surprise the family specially peter as I prepare a set of dinner at home, his mother thought me how to cook the favorite food of peter, we were too busy that day as peter was in the hill taking good care of the cows and all the animals. Everything is ready and set, it was just peter I was waiting for to arrive. But I was astonished that he wasn’t able to arrive at exactly the usual time peter has got home. I feel something disappointed, I have spending to much time in the dining table and my eyes is teary and weak. When suddenly a hamming of guitar is in the air. I have heard so sweet music outside the window and I suddenly run over there and…”Oh god, what? Peter it is you?” oh my god I feel that I was the most beautiful girl in the earth when I feel something very strange from these cute boy in front of me. At that very moment it seems that I was a baby listening to a lullabies sung by my mom. He really have a nice voice that I can feel her music deep with in. he really look good and make me shiver in great feeling. I can’t stop my eyes to shed tears on it and feel the essence of our togetherness. Boys in the city really do differ from the boys from the country side. I can feel right now that I love him and that he love me too, because what is the purpose of all of these if emotion and intimate affair doesn’t flame over between the two of us. His eyes is sparkling together with moon up above, right now I can feel the feeling how a girl being treasured by a handsome guy like peter. It was not just been long since I had known this guy, by the emotion is overflowing that even my self couldn’t explain.
Then he came up the stairs of there own house. He approaches me a humble smile that flatters me very well. He was carrying a bunch of freshly pick flower in the farm and a basket of sweet yellow mangoes. Then he said “Am good evening mom, and to you Sophia, I am here for a very important business to do with this very young beautiful lady in front of me.” God he really speak deep into my lungs…”Am peter, have a sit.”…then he said “Thank you.” Then we start to talk as if we were in the very romantic date. Then spokes very softly and utter the words of heart “I have been so lonely with my life as I live it up with my mom, I have been so afraid that the same thing might happen to me as what my past had gave me. But I am here again hoping that there would be another chance that the time could give me. Life was so dark the time you was not able to arise, but it was only you who bring back the light that past had stolen from me. I just want you to know that I have secret affection on you, maybe the rain and the event that bumps up us together is the sign of a new hope. I will not promise that I could be a perfect man on you, but I will do my best to make this relationship be perfect, if you would give me the chance. Sorry if I’ve been doing this, I just can’t stop my self but to express these feeling inside, don’t be mad I am not forcing you to the thing, I want you to do it with open mind and heart. May you understand me”… I was very speechless that time for he had the most beautiful words of courtship all over my life. I was very surprise of all these things. I cry and told him that “You know peter you are the only man I met that was very serious on the thing they were doing. I can feel that you are sincere of your words. You are just the only man that makes me feel that I am important and respect my own life. No, doubt I am accepting you in my life as my new hope and spirit” it was just so romantic. The room is filled up with songs of love as the light of the lamp added the ambiance of everything. He embraced me with teary eyes and whisper, I love you as much as I love my self” then I answer back “No, you have to love me and your self equally”…”thank you Sophia thank you” he was so humble and sincere. We have eaten the dinner which I have prepared and shared every sweet moment of our life.
Those events of my life make me to forget all the bad things that I have in my city. I even forget dad, all his harshness and strictness. I spend too much time in the town of Simon which I have considered as my new home. We shared so much happy moment in lake, rivers and mountain, sharing the beauty of nature and the song of the wind in the mountain side. I have been so happy everyday of my life here Simon. The people are not speculative like in the city. But the time of question and curiosity arrive in both of us. Peter have been so curios about my family, one moment as we are in the river having our lunch he try to asked me something that I just can’t answer…”Hey Sophie by the we’ve been together for about three months but I don’t know your family yet, but I guess it would be good if your mom and your well be a part of our relationship”…I was so stock that time and thinking again a new and good alibi but my heart really do want o express the truth. But I am searching for the right time and the right day to tell her everything. But when, until he knew that I am rich and spoiled girl in my city. No, I won’t let it happen. Then I think of a good way to escape this conversation “you know peter, mom died since I was a kid…and hohoho I don’t want to remember that”…then it succeeds. Peter had forget it all of his asking and do the comfort in me. “Oh, I am so sorry about it, I don’t mean to do it.”
We really do have so much fun as a new couple. Our relationship really works well on us as we make everything so perfect but except me and my own problem. How can I tell peter of my problem about true identity? I am so worried about it and can’t sleep every night, until I have decided to call a help from a friend. That night I make a call on Sheldon…”Hello?” I asked, then my friends Sheldon answer me “Hey girl, how are you I missed you so much which can’t help but to think of you. What make you call? What is the problem?” then I answered “Well, girl I need you’re advised, I been hooked up into these very cute country boy, he’s so amazing, he was just the only boy which I feel the good feeling inside. My problem is I can’t tell her my true me, it bothers me that he was so true to me, then it was just me who is so bias by not telling him the truth.”…Sheldon told me that “okay, to solve these give me your address and I will be there to help you right away”…then I told Sheldon “Just promise me not to tell anyone and to make these a secret, okay?” Then I have given her my location for I knew that I can trust my friend, hoping that everything would be okay and that Sheldon can help me to fix these mess I encountered. And that night I told peter that there would be a friend of mine that would going to visit me “Oh that’s great!” as peter replied happily. Then in that morning I was o excited to meet my friend Sheldon. Then exactly Sheldon arrived and we hugged each other for we miss each other so much. I bring Sheldon on the house of peter and I introduce them to each other. “Sheldon this is peter which I have told you that my new… you know!” then the two of us shiver as and laugh then Sheldon straight her hand to peter for a shake hand, then they have there short introduction to each other. Sheldon and I have a very long talked to each other and telling me everything what happen at home. Peter and I bring Sheldon to the river which we have always eat our lunch. And that very time I just have notice that peter was as quite as I feel that he was so shy with Sheldon. I asked him to join the talked but he refuses. So that is why I asked Sheldon to make peter be comfortable that time. Sheldon is a very lively and party girl which her strong personality makes everything so lively. Then Sheldon do my request and they start to talk until that Sheldon got the attention of peter. It was the second night of Sheldon in town as we go to sleep Sheldon is keep on talking about peter…”You know girl, Peter is such a cute and humble guy, his eyes were just so cute, his lips are kissable and his such a full package”…”Really?” I said, then the other day, they have talked so much that even me they forget to include in the talked but I don’t have any malicious suspicion for Sheldon is my friend.
The next morning, until the next morning, until next week until next month they have bonded too much which my human brain can’t stop to think of something is wrong of what I have seen and observed. That evening I seen something from afar of the hill a silhouette of a two person so close to each other. There hands are together and sitting in the grass, I just can’t see it clearly for it was too dark as go closer I was shocked for it is Sheldon and peter up there, I tried to control my temper and my feeling, I want them to notice me “Aham, excuse?” then they suddenly apart there hands and pretended that they have done nothing. “Oh Sophie it was you come and join us here together.” Then I sat down the grassy soil then peter, hugged me tight and his arms in my shoulder. But I can see that he is not looking at me, he was staring at Sheldon that time. I just can’t stop my self but to feel sad and disappointed. I have been ignoring the jealousy in me for I don’t want to destroy the relationship we have made together, relationship with Peter and so with Sheldon. An another night of something so sad, they talked in front of me as if I was not there, they have talking so loud and they have laugh together, but they cant see me at all. I came to point of asking my self first. What I did something wrong that peter would ignore. Is my love is not enough to prove that I love you so much. Every time that they talked very sweetly I just can’t stop but to let my eyes wet by tears. I think I need have to ask the two of them for my own safety and assurance that they are fighting me back. The night of peter’s birthday I was so busy preparing the set and also preparing myself to ask the question that I was eager to ask to them. But I really don’t have enough courage and strength to do the question. It was just me and his mother who is at home that time. I just can’t figure out what make this to so long in the hill for they were ask to invite some of his friends in the other side of the town. It really takes to long and make me think of things which make me angrier. The people to be invited are already here at home but the celebrant is not here. Speculations and doubt is in my head that time. I am force to go the way they have been. I have in my mind that they were in the house in the lake which we spend time. Just from afar I can figure out a figure of the two people close tight to each other. My mind can’t stop to think bad idea. I can’t think so much unless I can justify it with my eyes. As I go closer I can slowly figure it out that it…Peter and Sheldon sharing so much intimate lust of there own. My eyes grown so wide and I just cover my mouth with my hands. My eyes were raining of tears and my heart is slowly go insane and burns up in the fire of anger. I just can’t stop my self but to shout out over them. They shocked of my voice and they hurriedly dressed up there unclothed body. Peter run over me and explains why all of these have happen. But I don’t have anytime to listen to him, I hurriedly run over into the hill as peter runs after me. As we were running toward home we were caught by heavy rain and it wet my dressed. Peter run over me and hugged me tight and trying to explain and calm me down, then he said “Sophia wait, I can explain, it was just Sheldon who flirted me and tempt me over, I made a mistake sorry.” That moment I just can’t hear anything but the rain drops only suddenly I slapped Peter twice and kick him out that make him lay down because I’m sure he can felt the pain of the kick. I am running wet towards home, many people were there which have seen me crying wet, some of them help me asking why and what happen. But I can’t answer I can’t stop my self crying. At that very moment I decided to go home and face my consequences with my daddy.
I ride a bus back to the place were I forsaken. I don’t have anything to bring except my wet body. As I ride the bus my phone rang, it was Sheldon who is calling me, and I pick up the phone and let her talk and talk as I was listening but I don’t have any answer at all. It was just the noise of my own agony as I cried out loud in the middle of the ride. I can’t think of anything but to make revenge of what they did to me. As I have reached the city I can feel that daddy is waiting for me. I thought that I could find the better me in that place but it just that place that would change my whole life. I was just a waste of my time and heart. In my whole stay in Simon, I have never taken any news about dad that they were searching for me only to find out that…”I was already here, I have to face dad, I am ready.”…the mansion was then again the same as I left it. It was so quite and loneliness is in the ambience. Then my nanny approaches me…”Oh holy God thank you for you have sent back my lovely Sophia, what have you done to your self? Come and change your clothe!”…then I asked nanny about dad then she said “I will tell you later as you have done fixing your self.” As I finish fixing nanny told me everything about dad, nanny told me that “Sophia my dear, don’t be shocked just relax, your daddy is suffering from comatose right now. When we caught that it was not behind that mask your daddy was so angry and lead to hear heart attack. We directly send him to the hospital with an ambulance.” Then I recall that during my escape I have seen an ambulance beside the bus and “ohohohoho I knew it was daddy inside the ambulance, Sophia your pathetic” I nag my head hardly and scratch my hair as I cried out loud…”We were very busy searching for you and make any contact but we haven’t any idea where you are, so that is why we were waiting for you to go back home.” It feels like I was covered with the entire burden in the world. I climbed upstairs to see daddy. As I peep in the door I can’t afford to see him like that…” I’m selfish!!!” as I shout again and again to my heart. My heart covered with darkness and revenge. Peter has to pay in hurting me. I go to my room and I feel so exhausted when I lay down I can see from afar the wooden carved country boy who was given to me by my first love it is Ryan…then I whispered “Ryan Where are you? Comfort me please…” then it make me go to sleep.
The things that have happen in Simon is one of my tragic event of my life. Right now I am fall of darkness and revenge. I am my room’s balcony which I can see the whole hacienda with a glass wine in my hand as I murmur to my self…”Wait for me Peter, wait until you can taste the agony that you have brought to my life” I just cant stop but to think…”Kill peter…kill Sheldon…Kill Peter…Kill Sheldon” I these very dark plan to take the life of peter the one I love before and the life of friend Sheldon, my best friend Before. Still, when I can recall the night that Pt. Still, when I can recall the night that Peter have courted me I just can’t my self but cry. I make a plan that I will go back to the town of Simon for my evil plan and to do my revenge. I just have to wait for the right time and the right place to do it. I have received news that Sheldon and my love Peter is still together. It gives me more reason to do my plan. First I have to kill Sheldon for she is the only reason for all of these. It seems that I can’t identify myself already, this is not the girl, and this is not the Sophia I have known. But angers cover my eyes and evil is in me.
When I arrive in the town of Simon, no body can recognize me for I have changed my image. I directly go to place where every thing has started. I have my gun inside my bag and I am holding it tightly. I am standing over the hills I can see the river from here and the house of which where they shared flesh. I can see them…”Yes it was Sheldon!!!”…I tightly and slowly go to the house and even say hi to them…”how are you?” my freaky question, then Sheldon turns her head and trying to embraced me but I surprised her my gun and I directly point it to her, I cried out as she was Sheldon is crying too, that time peter it staring at us, trying to stop me but I have my gun in my hand. As I was crying I told them both…”you peter I have given my heart to you, but what you have done, you broke your promise, you have told me that it was only me that bring back the light to your life, and here I am again bringing darkness not light…you Sheldon, you’re a slot you have taken the man I love so much, I have trusted you everything but you are a traitor you cheated me, both of you cheated me, you deserved to die”… my hand were trembling since I am still hesitant to do the crime. “Sophia I am so sorry, yes I am traitor a slot, call me whatever you want, I know I made a mistake please accept my sorry and peter have something to tell you” those might Sheldon’s last words as I am determined to shoot her, as I clutch the gun it was peter who cover up Sheldon and it was my dear peter who received the bullet of my revenge my eyes grow more then bigger….”NO!!!!!!” I shouted very loudly. I was shocked and I can’t move. As peter whispers I hurriedly try to catch up here last words…”Sophia, I have been so sorry since from the start” his voice is so dull and soft, blood is coming from his mouth but he still keep on talking…”I am not peter I am Ryan your friend before, I love you I love you” then he die with his open eyes and I slowly close them with my trembling hands…”No!! No!! Ryan wake up don’t leave me I am so sorry, why you haven’t told me why, why”…I turns up my head to Sheldon and she embraces me, I cried out loud in her shoulder, then she whispers me “Sorry friends Sorry” as she hands me up the bottle necklace which I have given to Ryan when we were still kids. My life is been so sorrowful and sad. I have lost the man which might give me the best love that I can’t find as long as I live.
Life has started all over again. That time Sheldon is pregnant with Ryan. Life may as sorrowful as darkest night and as may love one has to leave us, but new light will give us the strength to move on.
And all of those memories will be left here in the river beside the hill of the town SIMON.



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Tell her I love her

Gladys is my neighbor, I always watch her from my house into her bedroom’s window. I really like her shiny, long, beautiful, black hair. She always binds them up with a very nice pink headband. She’s so beautiful and very wholesome. She is always with her mother to the grocery store. I always gazed at our window pane whenever she walked in there hallway. And said to my self “Oh, God Gladys is the girl I really dreamed, somehow I will dance with her” I never put that dream only in dream but somehow it could be put to reality. Well more for Gladys, I am Edward just a simple guy in the town with a wholesome attitude like Gladys, I am a good-looking guy too like Gladys, I also go with father at the grocery store like Gladys, what is only different is that I don’t tie my hair with a pink headband…..heehawed….yap that is true. Both of us is a first year student, Gladys is always included at the top five of there class. She is at first class of our school which focuses in academic event. And fortunately I am also at the first class of our school which focuses on the talent and other extra curricular event. When Gladys joined Quiz bee I always stay with the group of mine to present a dance number. And I always cheer wherever she got correct answer. It was the last week of October; the school conducted a big event to celebrate Halloween party. And all students are required to put their own costume. I wear a soldier costume with a big sword beside my lap. The party started exactly 6:00 in the evening and everybody was there before that time. But my eyes is always moving and staring at the entrance waiting for someone to arrive, yes it was Gladys I am waiting for.
Finally my suffering of waiting exactly ended when Gladys enter the Red carpet with her beautiful, shimmering and glittering fairy effect costume with her pink wings. It seems that everything in the gym stop except Gladys the fairy and I the mighty soldier…”WOW my princess come, come to me”…..
“Ladies and gentlemen” is the word which shock me because unknowing to me the emcee is starting now to talk and start the program. Everyone is enjoying, and I was enjoying too with my group of friend and I seen something at the corner of my eye, a lonely girl. It was Gladys lonely and no one is with her. I think this is the time I have to tell Gladys and approaches her. I slowly walked at Gladys side….”Ah….ah…am excuse me … Miss... May …May ahhh…I dance with you? ... “Oh Edward it’s you, yah my pleasure” Gladys answered very polite and I was amaze of how come to the point that she knew my name for the fact that we’ve never talked even once before this event happen. ”oh wow, thank you.” It is really hard to speak at the first time we step in the dance floor. We were just mannequins, no movement at all, no talk at all but a lot of feelings. We’ve dance as if we knew each other for a very long time. I’ve asked her “can I visited you in your house at weekend or shall we go out every weekend” my humble offer to Gladys “oh sure, I was so glad I have my new friend”….It is where the long conversation all started. It was like a dream come true. The night was ended I send her back to their home since we were just a neighbor; it is just easy to go visit her. It was a start of a new companionship.
The weekend came, the day was so fine and it is windy. I started to wake up exactly 5:00 at the morning to prepare our snacks because I decided to bring Gladys to the place where I really love to stay. I knock the house of Gladys and it is here mother who approaches me,” oh it is you Edward come in, and take a sit…. Gladys will be here in a minute she’s at the bathroom”…. Auntie Lisa said. “Oh it was very good to be here auntie” I replay. I seated in a very comfortable coach waiting for Gladys to arrive. I noticed a lot of medicines, injections, antibiotics and tablets and air pumped at the table, and some were all scattered at the floor. And so then, I watch her approaching and looking to the loveliest girl I’ve ever seen. This could make a man lose his heart into them. We are now trying to walk the nearby swimming area. I usually came here and bring food and eat them under my tree house build in an old oak tree. When we reach the lake I am the one who climb first and check if everything is okay. Then I went back down and said, “Do you like to come up?” she answered ”may I?” so I help her climb up and when she reach the top then she turned to me and said “by the way my full name is Gladys Sanchez, what’s yours? “ I answered, “My name is Edward ….”Even though I am not yet finished she continues saying Perez? “Yap, how did you know it?” “The truth is that I’ve known you for so long, mom always telling me about you because your mom is my mother’s friend, they tend to go together all the time at the grocery store” “oh really? How nice, also I have known you for so long since our grade school. I always tend to peep at our window to see you” I said. “Yap I always noticed that one, but I was just ignoring it or you.”
That time when she say those words, it put me into blush, it seems that I was ashamed of what I am doing, peeping to someone who notices you. ”Really? Oh I was embarrassed on that” I shamefully answered, then she tap my shoulder and said “don’t you worry it is just a normal behavior of a guy.” We laugh together. I offer her a sandwich and a soda pop. We watch the sunset in our very own front. Everything put into orange and I feel the essence of out togetherness. Gladys speak with her soft voice and said “I think we have to go home” and I answered “wait I have something for you. I offer her a wooden bracelet which I make out of mom’s wooden beads and she said “of Edward what’s this for” I answered “Just a sign of our new friendship, I just want to give you a remembrance of our first picnic “she finely get the bracelet from my palm and said “Thank you” then she jumped over the ladder and said “ See you next time, Thank you for the gift and I love it” I was amazed of what she say, I just want to take a reply but I am speechless. I was just alone in my tree house, the clouds runs darker and seems that a platoon of soldiers running up in the sky and suddenly a big heavy downpour of rain wet the soil. I hurriedly run home. I am wet when I reach the house. ”Mom it’s me Edward open the door,” while saying these and knocking the door my eyes were in Gladys’ house worrying if she got home safe before the heavy rain. Then Mom open the door with a towel. I dry myself and change clothes. I hurriedly run into my bedroom and dial Gladys’ landline…..ring….ring….ring…. In my surprise no one is answering the phone, I dial the phone for about ten times but I am always failed, no one is answering the phone “I think no one is at home” I said. When I try to watch her over there house I can’t see it because of a very thick fog. I can’t take calm and everything seems in mess, I can’t sleep; I am always thinking of her and wish that she is okay. I passed the whole night sleeping at the phone’s table. When suddenly mom awaken and said “Edward get up”….”oh mom sorry!! Where is Gladys, did she got home safely? ...Mother was confused of what I am saying….”What is the matter my dear, is there something wrong with Gladys?” I never take a chance to answer mom’s question. I directly call Gladys again and wishing again that she can answer my call. Then someone’s familiar voice answer the phone, it feel so sick and trebling. “Hello is Gladys around?” I heartily asked”…”yes speaking why?” she answer as if pretending that she is okay, “oh I was just wondering if you went home safe” I asked “oh how sweet, yeah I am okay never mind it, can I go with you to school today?” she said “what? Yes yes yes sure I will just go there and fetch you right away” My humble offer….okay bye.”
That was the happiest moment of my life. I give my self a satisfaction of a dream come true and a chance to know more the girl I really love the most, no doubt, no fear and no hesitancy. The next days were such a wonderful event of my life. At the lake was now our favorite hangout. We are now expressing words without ant doubt to talk and move everything without ant doubt to do so. We go to school together; we sometimes ride our bicycle toward school.
One funny event is that, she want to paint my bike with pink and purple, but that was against my like, we have argued for such a long time.. What I like Gladys the most is that, when she gives you an advice, she make sure that you can understand and relate to the things she want to express. I also tend to share with her my very big dreams to her to be come a doctor someday, she never, never laugh to it instead encourage me to do it harder, and that is one thing that make me fall in love with her. I sometimes help her to do her project and as a reverse one, she also tends to help with my assignment.
Years pass… it was now the four years of our stay in out school as a fourth year high school. Even though years fade, but my love to Gladys never fade, and never vanished. According to a great word “No smoke can keep in palm”. I never tell Gladys of what I fell. I stay mute even though I want to say I Love You. I stay freeze even though I want to touch here face. I even stay calm whenever Gladys storms my heart. But I can’t stop my heart to shout how much I love her. I keep this feeling inside in me for about more than four years. Four years is not easy to keep secret feelings and for the feelings which I am not sure that would possibly success. I am afraid to tell these three words to here in the way that Gladys could expect that I was just after of our friendship. Yes it is true, friend as I consider her in my life, but my heart want more than that. But I am willing to wait for the right time will come and offer me the chance. But when it could be? Extravagant days past, extravagant because staying with your dream girl is always more than one hundred percent happiness, this is a feeling beyond I can imagine. The only thing that gives me hope is the bracelet that until now she is always using it. But the time which I really do afraid is finally running on its way. The greatest news that burns me into fire is the only news that Gladys is not single anymore. Yes it is true she already have her boyfriend.
I never blame her, for the fact that I never shouted my feelings to her. I tend to laugh at my self once I caught myself peeping at Gladys with her boyfriend Jeffrey as they walk in the hallway. Jeffrey is a new boy in town. I’ve never seen him before. She waives at me and smile but I try not to be affected and pretended that I don’t see them. At that very moment my heart turns into pieces and I can’t stop my tears to fall down.
One moment Gladys asks me of what maybe a good gift for a man like Jeffrey. I really felt the pain and my heart start to cry, and shout the question why…why I never make the chance to say I love you. But I still keep on trying that someday this nightmare will be ended. And sometimes I always told my self that everything id too late.
I never like to listen to the class, I never put attention to my study and even my rehearsals are affected, and never make my assignment, in short I was tragically affected of my aching heart. It was Saturday, I asked permission to mom that I well spend the whole night in the lake in my tree house and mom agreed for it was not my first time. It was not yet dark when I reach the lake and it was sunset already…I was sitting in a modified big branch which reaches the ground and legs are hanging and no sleepers. I feel tired and I was like a battery to be charge in order to run again. I watch the sunset and repeatedly shout into the lake, “it is too late Edward…too late…too late…too late and the echoes make there response. Suddenly my tears fall and unknowing that I was crying. When suddenly someone tapped my shoulder and it was Gladys. I hurriedly wipe my tears but I can’t help my feeling but to let it calm. Then Gladys asked “Hey Edward, Prof. Tolintino call me up into his office asking if why you are absent for almost a week and never passed any requirement, your scholarship will be affected on that” she stopped and I just nod my head but no response at all and she continue again “why this is all happening and what is happening to you?” she asked I answered “Sorry, I will just fix all that problem and make sure that everything would be okay”. That was my response but I keep telling my self that this is all because of you. She again talk and said “I’ve been there in your house, your told me that you will be spending your time here until the morning, and then I decided to go with you in the ale and gladly mom agreed, that’s why I have here pillow and blanket”. And I reply “oh sure why not come and let us take some rest”. We spent the whole night at the lake. I try to bring everything out into normal as they do and indeed I make it, but still I can’t deny to my self that she belong to someone. While waiting for the day and while lying she told me “you know, I and Jeffrey broke up last night”…”what?” I shouted feels like I’m angry but inside I feel the joy and I said “well it’s okay there would be lot of boys there who likes you, so go to sleep and you will be okay”. At that time I was confuse that she never cry about the broke up thing. But all I know is that it is still not too late for me, chances still give me the opportunity. Everything is back to normal. But still the same thing is happening to me fear comes first than my heart. The days pass with Gladys off course; we do the same thing as normal. I spend now the class a very good one.
I can’t find any reason why I can’t really find myself in the middle of saying the words of love. I’m afraid that the same thing might happen.
It was now the time for our graduation I was excited to celebrate this kind of occasion. I consider this time as last time to tell her the true feeling that bothers me every second of my life. We spend our last time in the lake. As usual we bring food and them off course. But this time we tend to make swimming in the lake. We share lot laughter and a very unforgettable experience in my life. We tend to compete in swimming, even though I can do and easy to go over her I make everything easy and make Gladys win the race. ”yoo-hoo, Edward a loser, Edward a loser, Edward a loser” she shouted in a far side of the lake then I whispered into my self. “It is better to lose my self than to lose you”, then Gladys again shouted “what are trying to murmur, come here and let us eat the sandwich”. And I reply “yeah coming“. We eat a lot and drink a lot, we enjoy the moment as if there would be no tomorrow. We become quite for a while and let the tender wind dries up our wet clothes. Then she said “are you really willing to be come a doctor?” then I reply “yes”…”good for you” she reply then I asked her “how about you?” then she say “me? I want to become an interior designer, I really love it”. Both of us sitting in the modified branch of the oak tree. And the same way I am giggling my self to say the word but I can’t. My hand are moving forward here shoulder, but she notice it and look back then I hurriedly put them back in my side. Then suddenly Gladys takes a short talk “You know Edward? Your one of the best things that ever happens to me” then she put her head in my shoulder and in a quit time she fall asleep. The time for graduation had finally come. I and Gladys planned that we well be together to arrived at the gym. I am now ready to go over Gladys house with my full white tuxedo. I knock the door then it was Gladys who opened the door she’s very pretty with her white full dress then I put her red corsage and said “thank you”… It seems that everything back to start on the day that I met Gladys. When we arrive it exactly started the program. I sited far from Gladys it doesn’t mean I can’t see her, off course I always peek at her. Then Graduation Ceremony was ended and it is now time to celebrate a grand graduation ball. Same watt happen the other experience. I am busy with my friend that time when I suddenly notice Gladys, no one is with her. This time I am not shy, I said “Gladys watts up it’s time to celebrate come on.” We dance together in sweet mode. She is lying on my chest and I sing a song played and whispered “I love you” then she said “what? I can’t hear you the music was so loud. And I replay “Am I said I….” then suddenly Gladys phone rang. Then she said “wait for a while” she gut out the gym. It seems opportunity doesn’t cooperate with me. It was now really the same time I have to tell Gladys what I really feel. I nag my head and scratch my hair. I waited for Gladys to come back then I planned to get some drink so that when Gladys returns we have something to share. I waited for so long it finished eight songs yet Gladys is not around. I search her, the whole gym and yet Gladys not there. Then I decided to search her outside the gym. It was dark outside and only disco light lighted the outside it is not enough to recognize someone. Then suddenly I notice something in a dark, in my surprise it was Gladys I’ve seen I hide in the bush to surprise her but when I suppose to scratch on here, suddenly Jeffry is on its way to Gladys then kiss Gladys on her chick then take Gladys on its car. It seems everything stop, the world stop revolving. “Why lord, why?” I asked…. I supposed how to tell Gladys what I feel but still, now time is not with me. Really, maybe Gladys is not the right girl for me. I melted like ice chance to freeze again. The next day come. I never wasted time I left our town to enroll for my college level. I never even take waive and say goodbye to Gladys. “She said that they broke up then why everything turns to blue, why? I murmur in car…..That was the very waste day of my life. I left the town with heart crying. I never expected that everything will just be to nonsense. I will study hard to prove to Gladys that I am the right man to her. I take doctor, off coarse my very big dream. I take specialization in the heart. I maybe take ten years to finish this course. I really take focused on this. I never take any news from Gladys and nor give news from me. But still I can’t deny to my soul that Gladys is my girl. I even cry for a night when I remember the girl that I once love before. But the courage of my personality helps me to overcome this tragic event of my life. I never take denying that it hard to forget the girl that written in your heart. I suffered for ten years without any news from Gladys. If she is what now, if she’s okay with Jeffrey or I hope that she’s still single when I got home. Maybe it is too late but still I expressed the feeling that I kept of a long years. This feeling haunted me day and night, I never fall asleep, and always dream of her cause simply I miss the girl, Gladys. After ten years of focus study and heart ache I finally want to see Gladys. I want finally go home to see mom and Gladys. I am now a doctor, a full doctor when I got home. It was late at night when I arrived at home. I peek at Gladys bedroom and it was dark and also the house is dark. “But Gladys can’t take asleep without a light of her lamp, maybe she transfer to other room. I call up mom got inside. I can’t wait for the next day to come. When the sun start to shine over the town. I hurriedly prepare myself to see Gladys. I bring a little present for Gladys and a surprise then it was her mother again who open the door. I surprise said “hello surprise, hey auntie do you still recognize me, it’s me Edward. “Then aunties replay in a low voice and seem everything is in slow motion. “Yeah, Edward I can’t lose you in my memory especially to Gladys. Then I replay “yeah, so where is Gladys by the way?” Iasked... But auntie did not take any replay she holds my shoulder then she said “follow me”… Auntie brought me into the lake where we all started. It seems that I was only the man in the town and auntie, a strong wind as it forcing as to backward and dry leaves feels into cur very foot. When we reach the lake then in my surprise I saw a cross and it was written. GLADYS M. SANCHEZ. Everything stop I never hear any word hear the agony of my heart which slowly turns into a fire. I cry loud and blame my self. I can’t believe all these things happen. Then suddenly a sheet of paper was given to me by auntie it was sealed and looks very old. I slowly open the paper with my trembling hand and read:




Dearest Edward,

I never take a chance to lose our bracelet, maybe this is the only thing I can bring to heaven as a symbol of your kindness and care. You are the best things that ever happen to me. I LOVE YOU Edward, I feel these for a long time but no chance to say these all because I am afraid that I will just leave you cause I am living with my heart cancer and left you alone hurt and crying. One thing I want to clear is that, I and Jeffrey is not a boyfriend, Jeffry is my cousin, I make agree with him to make you jealous for you to react and tell me what you are screaming inside.
I loved you since the time you have not yet spoken that is why I know your name even though you have not yet finished introducing your name. I want to say sorry during the graduation party I left you and go over Jeffry because the doctor is at home my last check up for my chemotherapy. I’ve tried to search for your address but I can’t, that is why I was give my feeling is writing to tell you what I really feel. I have my cancer since 8 years old. And keep these all by myself and my family. But by the way, congratulation cause I know your now a professional doctor. Maybe when you finished it for a few years, maybe you can treat me. Yeah… so much for that... the only purpose I write these, is to tell you I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

Endlessly loving you,
Gladys



I slowly fold the paper and cry out loud. I kneel down into her grave and no one I can say but blame it and said “it is very, very, very too late… no time to speak”. Then suddenly the rainfalls into me and wet my whole body and I utter these final word “oh GOD tell her I loved her!”
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